The bus station clock was threatening to strike
seven when we arrived in Tuxtla. Our group disintegrated as soon
as our feet touched pavement.
Angie departed to discover what had become of her luggage in
the sleazy hotel where she had checked in two days earlier. She bought
a ticket for the next departure to San Cristobal de las Casas before leaving
the bus station which meant she had less than an hour to find it.
Catalina instantly befriended some bewildered-looking
foreigners. No doubt she would soon be escorting them to a hotel.
She was lucky enough to step from the bus right into her place of work.
Roger, Maria, and I needed to cover the distance
to school. My bare-chested teaching partner had run into the street
and stopped a cab to take us there directly, but Maria refused to accompany
us, insisting on such unnecessary niceties as clean clothes and a shower.
Being a gentleman, Roger let her have the taxi but not before extorting
from her a t-shirt. Maria was the only one of us who had been traveling
with luggage, but that consisted of only a single change of clothing.
Thus, the only garment she could offer him was a small white blouse that
she had worn the day before. It had looked sensational on her, tightly
hugging her slender torso, but Roger’s masculine frame stretched the fabric
completely out of proportion. The design of two black hand prints
that had been positioned so provocatively over Maria’s breasts became grotesque
clubbed paws near Roger’s neckline. The blouse was of inadequate
size to cover his entire body; consequently, unsightly body hair was put
into evidence around his belly button and at both armpits.
My appearance was nearly as ragged, faithfully
indicating that I hadn’t bathed with soap or changed my clothes in three
days. Indeed, I was wearing the same same clothes that I wore to
work on Friday. The image I was projecting wasn’t the most appropriate
one in which to attempt reconciliation with Don Cristian, but being a victim
of American socialization I shared Roger’s obsession with punctuality.
Furthermore, it would be dangerous to let my rival arrive without me.
My future as a teacher at Public School Number Three had become tenuous
with his arrival in Tuxtla Gutierrez. Circumstances had made the
two of us inseparable.
Don Cristian, as I had anticipated, took an inordinate interest
in my appearance when Roger and I charged into the administration building.
“Roger,” he called out to me. “Please step into my office.”
Once we were in privacy, he asked me to sit
down. He examined me slowly from head to toe and maintained a silence
that left me suffering in agony. Finally, he made a gesture.
He stretched out his hand to congratulate me.
“Roger Panker, I see you very much improved.
Frankly, you were overdue for a haircut, but I never dreamed you would
be willing to do it so thoroughly. Your beard is cut back so much,
it looks as if it were only three days growth.”
“Thank you,” I responded with forced calmness.
“It’s important for me to project an image that is customary of teachers
in Chiapas.”
“Quite right. Which leads me to the
issue of your attire. Perhaps in Arizona teachers dress more casually
than here, but since the subject has been brought up, I’d like to mention
that dress shoes are the norm and that rubber beach sandals are rarely
acceptable. Furthermore, let me suggest dress slacks instead of faded
blue jeans, and dress shirts in place of t-shirts that say, ‘I’m with stupid’.
What’s more, you would present a more professional image if you arrived
at work with your clothes clean and neat, preferably freshly donned and
not something you slept in all night.”
His case was presented so politely and respectfully
that I couldn’t help but agree. I thanked him for the suggestions.
The principal continued, “It wasn’t my intention to be intrusive,
but when your clothes were washed at my house, I couldn’t help seeing your
entire wardrobe on the clothesline. You completely lack anything
I would consider professionally appropriate.”
Truth was I felt offended. I concentrated
hard to try to recollect at least one example to contradict Don Cristian’s
assertion. The only thing that came to mind was socks and I told
him that I owned a pair of dark ones.
His face, which had projected nothing but
goodwill during our interview, suddenly transfigured into bewilderment.
Perhaps he thought my comment to be trivial, or maybe he didn’t consider
that I had appropriately classified my gray woolens.
“Roger, I have a proposition for you.
My new brother-in-law teaches math at the preparatory school downtown.
He recently put on a great deal of weight. He just inflated himself
like a dirigible. Anyway, after I spoke to him, he agreed to loan
you his work clothes for the time you’re here in Chiapas. He hopes
to fit back in them some day, but frankly, it’s unlikely because of the
way he packs in the vittles. They say newlyweds always gain weight.
Are you interested, Roger, in using his clothes?”
“Yes, thank you.” I was feeling a genuine
excitement for dressing myself as a teacher. Don Cristian once again
treated me with generosity when I considered myself undeserving.
“Do me a favor,” he said kindly. “Take
off that stinky outfit and find something decent to put on. I took
the liberty of bringing the clothes to school for you.”
The shirts and pants were all cleaned and ironed. They
hung on hangers and were folded across the back of a chair ready for my
inspection. I proudly selected a spotless pair of white slacks and
white long sleeve shirt. There was no clean underwear at my disposal,
but I reversed the pair I was wearing to approximate the sensation.
It felt great to be dressed up. It was the first time I had felt
so good about being dressed up in formal clothes since ballroom dancing
lessons in junior high school.
My benefactor discreetly had his back turned
to me while I dressed but declared that he had two important questions
to ask me. “Do you intend to continue staying at my house?
And who is that strangely-dressed guy who walked in with you?
Nothing would have made me happier than to
surrender myself again to the kindness of Don Cristian, but I could not
subject myself to the shame I would feel accepting gratuitously his hospitality
while maintaining the pretense of having my pockets stuffed with dollars.
Furthermore, the invitation had always been directed to Roger Panker, an
identity I was in danger of losing now that the genuine individual had
made his appearance in Tuxtla Gutierrez. I had hoped to sustain my
deception and remain teaching in the classroom by keeping Roger out of
sight and away from the school, but he apparently wished to replace me
as the classroom instructor and use me only as an aide in some inconsequential
capacity. Having neglected to negotiate precisely with Roger our
professional relationship, I decided to take the liberty to define it to
the principal in a way that best suited me.
The school secretary already believed he was
my friend and namesake, so it seemed expedient to present the same scenario
to Don Cristian. It was a risky strategy, but I was feeling pressured
to respond to Don Cristian’s pair of questions. An elaborate lie
occurred to me that could satisfy him on both counts. It was fortunate
that he was turned away from me. Having elected to incriminate myself
with additional lies, my face burned red with shame. If I had been
looking into the eyes of the man who I esteemed as my great mentor, it
would have been impossible for me to communicate falsehoods. Likely,
I would have broken down in tears, confessing everything, begging him for
forgiveness and to allow me to continue at the school in any capacity he
thought me worthy. Speaking to his back, however, my conscience was
left unrestrained, and I fell into temptation. I told him some whoppers.
“I’m sorry I won’t be able to stay with you
any longer. That man in the lobby is a friend of mine who has come
down to live with me for the duration of the exchange. We've rented
an apartment together. You won’t believe what his name is.”
I laughed woodenly, having intended to make it sound spontaneous.
“Roger Panker.”
“Really,” responded Don Cristian in monotone.
That’s right. We have the same name.
We used to get each other’s mail when we were students at Arizona State.
That’s how we met.”
“I see,” said the principal in a neutral voice
that still did nothing to betray the degree to which he was believing me.
I had already jumped into the pool; there was no option for me but to continue
swimming. I hoped I wasn’t drowning.
“It turns out we have a great deal in common
besides our name. We became best friends. We’ve been inseparable
ever since. That’s why he took a leave of absence to be here with
me.”
“He’s also a teacher?”
“Oh yes. He’s the person who persuaded
me to change my college major to education. After graduation we were
able to get jobs at the same school.”
“It’s funny that you two are such good friends,
but you never mentioned anything about him. I only remember you talking
about a girlfriend you left behind.”
“Well, that’s natural. Roger is a good
friend, but I don ‘t miss him in the same way as a woman.” I winked
exaggeratedly as if to make it audible because, of course, Don Cristian
couldn’t see me with his back turned. “Lydia may also come to visit
me.” I added.
“Very good,” he said. “Perhaps Maria,
the secretary would be willing to have her stay in her apartment.
The poor girl lives all alone. Her family is in Yajalón.”
“No, she’ll stay with me,” I answered automatically.
It was a shock to the conservative educator who had only made a plausible
suggestion to what he saw as a potential housing problem.
“Of course,” he answered uncomfortably.
“I had forgotten that Americans have more relaxed standards of moral conduct.
You know, virginity is still seen as a virtue for unmarried women in Mexico.
It’s important, at least, to maintain the appearance of chastity.”
It was my turn to be surprised. “What
a disappointment!” I said aloud and then became embarrassed by the implications
of my own outburst. Surely, the courtship practices in Mexico didn’t
effect me personally. Why should I have felt it necessary to respond
that way?
“Roger plans to assist me in the classroom,
if you’ll grant your permission of course.”
“How fortunate,” he responded with deliberate
slowness. “We’ll have two foreign teachers instead of one.”
“We’re used to teaching as a team,” I explained,
“and he likes to stay active in the profession. My friend will get
bored if he’s not in the classroom.”
“Does he always dress so strangely to go to
work?”
“I’m sure he would be willing to change his
shirt for one of these.”
“Very good,” he answered.
I was finally dressed, and we stepped out
together into the reception area. Once again in two weeks span Don
Cristian greeted Roger Panker with a hug, only this time it was the genuine
article.
“Welcome to Public School Number Three, Roger
Panker. It’s a pleasure to have you here.”
The American man opened his mouth and would
have doubtless vocalized an appropriate greeting if the Spanish vocabulary
had been readily available to him. After an awkward interval, he
finally muttered, “Hola Amigo.” Thus, his fluency in Spanish became
suspect.
“Sorry, no English,” responded the principal
with nervous laughter. Turning to me he said, “I was afraid that
our foreign teacher would be as language deficient as your friend.
It’s fortunate that you are completely fluent. It would have been
a disaster for us.”
The administrative assistant came over to
inform Don Cristian that it was time for the flag ceremony. Roger
and I followed them outside to the basketball courts where the entire student
population was waiting in formation in their tidy pink uniforms.
The group that I was supposed to have been teaching was there, showing
no visible disappointment for having missed their time with me. The
image of clean-cut professionalism that I projected in my new clothing
contrasted with the buffoon-like appearance of my American partner.
Needless to say, Roger made an unfavorable impression on the assembled
staff and students when Don Cristian introduced him. Roger was unaffected
by the audible laughter. He was beaming with pride, expanding his
chest so that it pressed even more tightly against the confining blouse.
Roger never suspected that he had been introduced as my assistant.
He had assumed he was being restored to his legitimate position as exchange
teacher.
There was time for Roger to put on one of
the clean dress shirts before entering our eight o’clock class, but I was
afraid, nevertheless, that his presence would be a disturbance.
“Oh no! We’re going to have to break
in a new teacher,” called out one boy.
“Be respectful!” commanded Lucy from her seat
in the front row while Roger cast a severe glance in the direction of the
offending student. His expression was severe enough that the entire
class recoiled. Silence smothered them all. As a purely reflex
reaction, they pulled themselves to attention, projecting the same illusion
of attentiveness that they had for me on the first day of class.
Roger kept his mouth closed tightly and maintained
vigilant visual contact as he stepped across the front of the classroom
and sat down behind the solitary teacher’s desk. It was no bigger
than a TV tray, but even so, it was the only prestigious place to sit.
I crammed myself into a tiny wooden student desk. I was more than
happy to cede him my chair after seeing the change in the students’ behavior.
“I don’t know what he said, but I didn’t like
his tone of voice,” said to me confidentially.
“How did you get them to be so quiet?” I asked.
“A teacher should never smile before Christmas.
It’s important to set a precedent of strictness upon starting a new school
year. You can always loosen your expectations for behavior later
on, but it’s impossible to get more strict with them once the students
are already out of control.”
Roger addressed the class in English.
“There have been too many classroom transgressions of the code of conduct,
and my purpose for coming here is to punish those who are guilty.”
I translated, adopting the same authoritarian
tone of voice as my partner. It was unclear what the punishment would
be, but the students were cowed nonetheless.
“What are the classroom rules?” he asked me.
“Well, I’ve never actually specified them.”
“That’s too bad. It’s better to have
them written down and posted on the wall.”
“I travel to seven different rooms and each
one is shared by all the teachers. They may not appreciate me hogging
up the wall space.”
“At least you could photocopy the rules and
have the students keep them in their three-ring binders.”
“There’s no copy machine here.”
“How do the teachers hand out work?” he asked
me incredulously.
“They dictate it and the students write it
in their wire-bound notebooks.”
“I see,” he told me. Then speaking to
the students he said, “I will dictate the classroom rules. Please
get ready to write them down.”
There was a groan heard from from the group
when I translated the instructions. Roger chose to give them a stern
redress.
“Rules are necessary to have order and so
that students can learn. I don’t care if you find it unpleasant.
You have no alternative.”
Again, I translated, mimicking his tone of
voice.
To me, he said, “Sometimes, I have students
make up their own rules, but it’s a slow process. We need to get
on with our lesson.” He quickly wrote down a list of five rules as
he spoke. I wrote the Spanish translation beneath them while he continued
his explanation to me. “Classroom norms should be positive statements
that serve as models for desired behavior. Negative statements only
serve to bring to the students’ attention specific prohibited activities
and may actually tempt them to indulge in them, taking into account the
frequently perverse nature of adolescents.”
Roger dictated to the children in their own
language reading my translation. His accent was lamentable, but no
one dared giggle.
“Rule number one. Listen quietly while
the teacher is speaking.
“Number two. Participate in all classroom
activities to the best of your ability.
“Number three. Come to class with your
textbook, pencil, and notebook.
“Number four. Respect the physical integrity
of other people.
“Number five. Dispose of food and gum
before entering the classroom.
Roger switched to English and I translated
for him. “Many of you in this room are guilty of breaking the rules.
Expect your retribution.” Spinning around to point at a boy near
the door, Roger proclaimed gravely, “You’re guilty of breaking rule number
one.” It was a good guess, but then, nearly every student had made
his or her contribution to the offending din of the previous two weeks.
Identifying a tall girl with wavy hair he
proclaimed, “You’re guilty of breaking rule number two.” She hid
her face in shame. It was true that she could have completed her
cartoon assignment more conscientiously, but she wasn’t the only one who
suffered that doubt.
“You’re guilty of breaking rule number three,”
he said to a girl who had entered the classroom empty-handed. She
silently vowed to come prepared in the future.
Placing his hand on one boy’s shoulder, he proclaimed, “You’re
guilty of violating rule number four.”
“It’s not true,” the student blurted out.
“I haven’t hurt anyone.”
Concentrate child and you’ll remember what
you did.” Roger wasn’t about to let truthfulness interfere with the
accumulating drama of his presentation. The boy’s protests were stifled
by the reproaching glances of his classmates who were now convinced that
the gringo teacher had supernatural powers to divine their culpability.
Finally, the student abandoned his own defense having remembered an incident
on the soccer field when he had knocked down another player.
Roger then indicated the guilt of a plump
girl devouring a sandwich from the snack bar. “You’re blatantly guilty
of violating rule number five.”
“It’s not fair,” she cried out. “I brought
this sandwich into the classroom before you gave us the dictation.
You can’t punish us for anything we did before you gave us the rules.”
Roger was momentarily stunned when I translated
her comment, but he quickly recovered his composure. “Tell her to
save that question for the lesson on ex post facto laws. In our circumstances,
her complaint is invalid. The students all should have known that
your conduct was inappropriate. There is a way, however, to escape
punishment.”
“Tell us how,” several of them called out
at once.
“I’m not sure that it would be wise.
“I don’t want to be punished,” said the fat
girl. “Please tell me how I can get out of it.” Many other
students used body language to communicate their conformity with her request.
“It’s expensive,” he warned them.
“Are you asking for a bribe?” inquired the
tall girl.
“It’s not exactly a bribe it’s an opportunity
to buy indulgences.”
The students sat perplexed.
Roger continued, “An indulgence is a piece
of paper like this one.” He ripped a page from a notebook he had
with him. “There is a message written on it that forgives the owner
of the paper for committing sin.”
“Is misbehavior a sin?” someone asked.
“Did I say sin? I meant that it forgives
them for breaking a rule. For instance, this one says, ‘The bearer
is forgiven for chewing gum in class.’” The paper actually contained
some feeble lines of Roger’s own poetry, but that detail was unimportant
to the students because they couldn’t read English anyway.
“I’m selling it for ten pesos,” said Roger.
The interest of the students quickly dissipated.
Those few who had that quantity were thinking it would be better spent
on candy.
“What will you do with the money?” one boy
demanded.
“Don’t worry. It’s for a good cause:
a library for the school.”
“You’ll need mountains of money to build a
library,” one girl commented skeptically.
“You’re right. That’s why I have lots
of indulgences to sell. And I can always make more. Here is
one that forgives fighting. Thirty pesos. This one is for students
who come to class without a book. Fifteen pesos.”
The girl who had no book looked sadly away.
It was more than she could afford. “Indulgences are unfair,” she
called out. “The students who have money won’t be punished.”
“Well, what do you think should happen to
students who break the rules?”
“The teacher should forgive us, and we’ll
promise not to be bad again,” she said hopefully.
“Students who break the rules should be punished,”
said another. “It’s not fair that the ones with money should avoid
the consequences of their actions.”
The entire class agreed that indulgences were
unjust.
Roger put on a pensive face as if their opinions
surprised him. “What then do you think should happen to teachers
who sell indulgences?”
“They should be fired,” said one student near
the back. The implication was that Roger should be fired, but he
didn’t take it personally. It was all part of his plan.
“Let’s say the teacher can’t be fired,” he
answered calmly.
“Then the students should quit their school
and form another,” someone answered.
“A new school! Did you say you’d form
a new school? With whose authority? How will you make your
school legitimate?” Roger began pacing in front of the classroom,
pretending to be perturbed. He spoke as if to himself but really
for the benefit of the students.
“I knew I shouldn’t have mentioned indulgences.
It’s not the first time there has been resistance to that idea. Why
didn’t I learn from history? If it didn’t work for Pope Leo, why
should it work for me?”
Some of the brighter students began to suspect
that the new teacher had tricked them into learning something about history.
Others sat confused, but curious, straining to comprehend.
“Are you really determined to form a new school?”
“Yes,” came the answer from several students.
“What if I promise to change? I’ll do
away with indulgences. Will at least some of you decide to stay?”
Roughly half the students raised their hand
to signify that they would.
“I’m happy to see that. Together we’ll
form a counter-reformation against those splitters, the ones who want to
reform my classroom.”
Lucia’s eyes widened. It was as if she suddenly saw the
profile of two faces instead of a picture of a goblet. “The splitters
are like the Lutherans who formed their own church. Those of us who
want to stay are like the Catholics of the Counter-Reformation.”
She may have been the only student who had paid attention to my ineffective
lecture the week before.”
“Yes, that’s right,” said Roger. “The
most divisive issue in the Reformation was indulgences. The pope
had authorized their sale to raise money to build St. Paul’s Cathedral
in Rome. People who bought indulgences had their sins automatically
forgiven. Some people even stockpiled them to be prepared for sins
they might commit in the future. Martin Luther was opposed to them.
He was a Catholic priest who taught Theology at The University of Wittenburg
in Germany. He wrote down ninety-two theses, or points of criticism,
about the policies of The Catholic Church at that time, but his strongest
criticism, as I said, was reserved for the practice of selling indulgences.
Luther nailed the theses to the door of the local church where public notices
were frequently placed.
“The Pope was displeased with Luther’s lack
of respect for the church hierarchy and ordered him to be excommunicated.
Luther reluctantly formed a new church in Germany. In his mind, it
replaced the Catholic Church which he thought had lost its legitimacy.
His intention was to make Lutheranism the exclusive Christian faith.
Instead, he set the precedent for the establishment of other Christian
denominations like the Calvinists in Switzerland, the Huguenots in France,
and the Anglicans in England.
“The religious leaders formed alliances with
heads of state that had armies at their disposal. Consequently, the
conflict was not just religious. It became political. Wars
erupted in Europe.
“The leaders of the Catholic Church finally
recognized the need to institute reforms. At the Council of Trent,
changes were made in church policy. It was a Counter-Reformation.”
“Who won the wars? The Catholics or
the Protestants?” asked Lucia.
“Well, there were successes and failures for
both sides. In France, the supremacy of the Catholic Church was re-established.
Most of Northern Europe was left open to Protestantism.”
“What about Mexico?” someone asked.
“What were the effects of the Reformation here?”
“Mexico at that time was a newly established
Spanish colony. Spain had remained strongly Catholic during the Reformation.
Their zeal was in fact reactionary. The inquisition was instituted
in Spain as well as here in New Spain. Every attempt was made to
obliterate the religion of the native Mexicans. Their temples were
destroyed, their codices burned, and their religious rituals banned.
The Indians were forcibly baptized in mass ceremonies. The result
was that Mexico became universally Catholic. The introduction of
Protestantism in Mexico is relatively recent. Let’s hope the different
branches of Christianity can find a way to exist together here in harmony.”
His final wishful comment was not always realized,
unfortunately, in Chiapas where religious differences in some communities
have led to bloodshed. There had even been such strong animosity
among my own students that I had been prevented from teaching about the
Reformation. Roger had been able to address the topic without interruptions
because he had spoken with objectivity and most importantly he had stimulated
the students’ interest through an activity that they had related to in
a personal way.
Roger assigned the pages that were to be read,
now that he had given them an effective introduction to the unit.
It was a duplication of an assignment I had already given them, but none
of the students noticed. It was much more likely that they would
read it this time. I wondered if the smooth functioning of the classroom
I was witnessing could be maintained throughout the semester.
“There is a tendency,” Roger told me later,
“for the students to be well behaved on the first day with a new teacher.
It’s important to take advantage of that and have something prepared for
them to do that will actively engage them.”
He experienced similar positive results with
the other groups that day. I was greatly impressed. One good
day, however, did not not necessarily guarantee him continued success.
I remembered how I had lost my effectiveness after my initial success with
the comic book assignment. Shamefully, I recognized a malevolence
in my attitude toward Roger. I began hoping he would crash and burn.